It's him.

I'm sitting here listening to Fall Out Boy, the song that he uploaded. Twenty Dollar Nosebleed, which he's trying to learn on piano. He already knows Viva la Vida, Holiday, Fix You, and pretty much every good song he can find on sheetmusic.com. That's part of why I love him. He is the best and worst thing to ever happen to me. We're best friends, but he doesn't love me like that. I can't swallow the fact that I won't be seeing him for two more weeks. It's a snow day today, so I didn't even really get to say goodbye to him. I just have never felt like this towards anyone in my 14 years of existence. People who know us think we belong together, but it's not going to happen in the immediate future, I don't think. Maybe never. As long as fate gets me out of this particular situation, I'll be fine. But right now, it's hard to hang on to my sanity. I need help.